more than arms length

to feel you 

from a distance 

just isn't the same

I want you here

in body

as well as spirit 

want you to whisper 

meaningless things

into my ear

want to hear

the sound your lips make

when you smile

want to hold 

and have

not hold

and wait. 

.

sometimes i just want

to wrap myself

up into a cocoon with you

and never emerge.  

her

it's so easy to love you

when your feather-fly face 

hovers over placid waters

and your eyes

eyes like birthmarks on the sun

dart around for a nice spot

to lay me down easily. 

🌂

and they 

thrashed about

a jumbled mess

of flesh and limbs

!!!

endorphins

adrenaline

coarse through me 

wanna fight

someone

bring them

to knees

wanna unleash

the dormant

beast within

the primate 

bottled

grows so thin

want to free 

the hounds

that roam

the hell

want to free

the thing

i know

so well 

must live

to show

i can

i will

must live

to show

i have

it still 

no man

nor god

no helping hand

can keep

me from

the farthest land 

to roam

to find

something 

i know 

to live

to feel

to breathe

to grow 

P.O.T.

hard to sleep

as the city sleeps

when my brain

rife with plumes

shot from fog machines

billows

and the distant

future

becomes

not so distant. 

despite the change

even though i'm leaving you
it's the most i've ever needed you.

twisted moon

full of brilliance 

purpose unquestioned 

wholly you 

you stare down on me 

with heavy eyes

seeing what i do 

knowing what i desire

and laughing at the difference

you 

same moon

who before has rained down 

confidence

certainty 

beauty

why now do i gaze up 

to feel so 

broken 

small 

lost. 

phew

i need you

so bad 

together 

we're soaring. 

dew york

terrace of wonder 

on which I perch

laying eggs of candied delight 

a stones throw from the river

there I feel

pangs of past particles 

whose once gentle yearnings 

now pillage the present 

these eyes 

these knowing eyes 

feel greatness in their gaze. 

post cars

the woman 

that makes my blood boil 

is the same woman

that makes my soul soar. 

navy pier

live to tell the tale you did

die to know that it was said. 

peace.

maybe it's hell 

out there 

somewhere 

but right now 

I've got heaven 

right here 

beside me. 

worn soul

and maybe years from now 

with head rested on damp books 

and driving dreams behind me 

I'll sit and stare out the day 

pondering 

always pondering

did I be enough to believe 

did I see enough to succeed?

period.

certainly love 

with reckless limbs 

stretched to breaking points 

and hearts

with blind ambition 

clutching fate's wheel

can't steer us wrong. 

gentle force

and isn't it funny

that you 

in your tincil-webbed world

hack my heart 

with a pickaxe

sculpt my psyche

like playdoh

crash my dreams 

with cymbals 

and holdfast 

like a flytrap 

cloudpockets

a dense pocket of time 

inside which all felt slow

lingering

dripping with meaning 

pleasure on a bed of nails 

that in retrospect 

I revisit from time to time 

and gaze fondly upon 

only grazing the surface 

yearning for repetition. 

sit.

I dare you 

to sit 

and be 

just you 

where you are

right here

doing what 

you're doing 

right now 

thinking not of

what's next 

what happened 

what will be 

but of 

what's here

what's now

what's me. 

to & fro

in light 

in lies 

in broken tries 

transit's lines

fall heavy 

on my mind 

on tracks 

groomed trails

destinations accounted 

earth travels mapped

and documented 

novel sights stir thoughts 

nothing is lost

just mulled over 

digested 

dissected

and tossed

newfoundland

inside us

brave explorers 

of charred terrain

scorch the earth 

and rebuild

again and again

🆗

sometimes the feelings 

we feel with our feelers 

feel right 

when we feel the feels 

the feels 

hold tight

the feels we feel 

sometimes feel felt

and sometimes those feels

feel outside our self

but when you feel 

you're still feeling

and though mind is reeling 

and body is keeling

the feelers shed feelings

to live is to feel things.