come back.

curl your lips around my soul
how i'd melt when i was whole
tear me up or wear me down
i can't lose you now, i've found

we breathed as one every night
clung to you, i held you tight
limbs overlapped, skin exposed
to only you i felt this close

but the world moves in random ways
and then one day you moved away
i tried so hard, but couldn't console
the distance already took its toll

and now you're gone and i am here
heart aching, i hold back tears
selfish i know, but you can't be free
i need you now here beside me.

Sink.

Surrounded by couples 

In a city park 

On a damp Friday night 

They're all up or down tonight 

These people 

This weather doesn't breed

lukewarm dialogue 

Either a plea or mindless chatter

I am but an observer 

Heart heavy 

An internal downpour 

Torrential as it should be 

Finally feeling the weight 

Unbearable 

Yet desirable 

Oh burden me with this realness 

Let me sink to my core 

I know at the bottom 

There's more to find

And so I delight 

And holdfast to the anchor 

Knowing not how far down it goes. 

I'm drowning. I'm choking. 

And I feel most alive. 

longing

I keep thinking it will get easier to live without you
it doesn't
I keep clinging to that past we shared
The one where you illuminated my world,
held it like an orb in your hand

I put my head down and try to move on
busying myself with the remedial
Eschewing flashing glimpses of your smile
That threaten my every step forward

There's a part of me that wants to hurtle
myself back at you
Show you that you need me-
that in a world of variables
I'm a constant

But I know I can't
This passion can't be restored
through desperate plunges toward hope
And so we part
For now, at least
__________________________

Part II

I walk alone in the moonlight
Under the watch of streetlamps and your eyes
They follow me in the humid darkness

And before I look left I think to myself
"What if you're there, staring at me?"
Dressed in tattered clothes with arms open
A cracked smile and teary eyes
Despair scrawled upon your etched complexion
"What if you want me still as much as I want you?"

So I turn my head

But you're not there
And I draw the air back into my lungs
Bite down hard
And walk upstairs to dwell in my longing