Sink.

Surrounded by couples 

In a city park 

On a damp Friday night 

They're all up or down tonight 

These people 

This weather doesn't breed

lukewarm dialogue 

Either a plea or mindless chatter

I am but an observer 

Heart heavy 

An internal downpour 

Torrential as it should be 

Finally feeling the weight 

Unbearable 

Yet desirable 

Oh burden me with this realness 

Let me sink to my core 

I know at the bottom 

There's more to find

And so I delight 

And holdfast to the anchor 

Knowing not how far down it goes. 

I'm drowning. I'm choking. 

And I feel most alive.